My Mind
Het rustige geruis van de zee zorgde ervoor dat alle chaos in mijn hoofd tot rust kwam. Ik bewonderd het. De oceaan. Het was exact hoe ik me voelde. Het ene moment heel rustig maar het kan ook complete chaos en stormen verrichten. Ik had ooit eens in een quote gelezen. Het was echt prachtig over de ocean (quote). Ik likt over mijn lippen en proefde het zout.
Soms weet ik niet wat ik met bepaalde emoties moet doen. Als ik het zij hebben zou ze even erg reageren mss niet erger.
Got a hole in my soul, growing deeper and deeper. And I can't take one more moment of this silence. The loneliness is haunting me. And the weight of the world's getting harder to hold up.
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It comes in waves, i close my eyes. Hold my breath and let it bury me. I'm not okay, and it's not alright. Won't you drag the lake and bring me home again?
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Who will fix me now? Dive in when I'n down?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown.
Who will make me fight? Drag me out alive?
Save me from myself, don't let me drown.
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'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own.
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Deur open, deur dicht.
Weer alleen.
I just want to run from everything. From my 'friends', the bullshit, school and the thoughts in my head.
Just all of it.
Drown
I fell in love with you
I don't know how
I don't know why
I just did.
wat hem onmiddellijk opviel was het geluid, alles klonk zo verschrikkelijk hard in het donker
Blauwe en groene lasers schoten over me heen.
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Diep van binnen klopt mijn hart op het ritme van jou naam
I've had enough.
There's a voice in my head, says i'm better of dead.
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But if I sing along, a little fucking louder
to a happy song, I'll be alright.
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You want to give up gave it all that you've got and it still doesn't cut.
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But if you sing along, a little fucking louder to a happy song, you'll be just fine cause'
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Every now and again we get that feeling
and the great big void inside us opens up
and I really wish that you could help
but my head is like a carousel
and I'm going round in circles
I'm going round in circles.
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We are possessed,
we're all fucked in the head.
Alone and depressed
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But if we sing along, a little fucking louder to a happy song, maybe we'll forget cause'
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Every now and again we get that feeling
and the great big void inside us opens up
and I really wish that you could help
but my head is like a carousel
and I'm going round in circles.
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Don't wake us up, we'd rather just keep dreaming.
Cause' the nightmares in our heads are bad enough and I really wish that you could help
But my head is like a carousel
and I'm going round in circles
I'm going round in circles
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The world had coalesced, into one giant mess
of hate and unrest
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So let's all sing along, a little god damn louder to a happy song, and pretend it's all ok.
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Let's go!
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So let's sing along
Let's sing along
a little fucking louder
a little fucking louder
Well, don't you feel so much better?
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So come rain on my parade,
cause I want to feel it.
Come shove me over the edge
Cause my head is in overdrive
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I'm sorry but it's too late
And it's not worth saving
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I think we're doomed
And now there's no way back.
Somedays you'll feel sad without knowing why like you lost something very precious but forgot what it was if you miss someone you never met
I lost my heart to the ocean and with it a piece of my soul
Happy Song
People are prettiest when they talk about something they really love with passion in their eyes.
When a girl cries it's not usually over one thing it's built up anger and emotions that she's been holding in for too long
He's more myself than I am
Whatever our souls are made of his and mine are the same - Emily Bronte
And in the end we were all just human, drunk on the idea that love only love could heal our brokeness
Reason and love are sworn enemies
No, You're not a bad person and I'm not a bad person. We're just people, and people sometimes do stupid things.
I'm a daydreamer and a nightthinker.
He's more myself than I am
Whatever our souls are made of his and mine are the same - Emily Bronte
​There comes a time when you have to stop crossing oceans for people who wouldn't jump puddles for you.
You were never supposed to mean this much to me, I was never supposed to fall so hard. But you know what? I did and that's the truth, that's what keeps me holding on because it hurts like hell to let you go.
"That's what happens," she said, "You let people in, and they destroy you."
How do you run away from the things that are in your head?
I wish you could hear all the words I'm too afraid to
I don't chase anyone anymore. Wanna walk out of my life, there's the door. Hell, I'll even hold it for you.
Every heart sings a song incomplete until another heart whispers back.
Plato
Sometimes we don't say what we feel, not because we don't want to, but because we don't know how.
Don't worry. Someday, he'll regret it.
Cause you know that I'll always be there maybe that's why you don't care.
One day you are going to miss me chasing you, you're going to miss my annoyingness you're going to miss how much I cared about you. You're going to miss me.
Make the pain go away.
Here I am again, Feeling like I'm not wanted. Feeling like I'm worthless. And even though I'm alive, feeling dead.
So, I guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose were we go from here. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.
We all accept the love we think we deserve
I want you to hug me from behind, unexpectedly. I want you to give me your hoodie when I'm cold. I want you to hold me and keep me warm. I want you to cuddle with me and watch movies. I want you to kiss me in the rain. I want you to hold my hands and play with my fingers. I want you to play with my hair. I want you to take amazing photos with me. I want you to come to my house and meet my family. I want you to let me dress you up and make you look silly. I want you to tell your friends everyday how much you love me. I want you to write me songs and poems. I want you to watch the sunrise with me. I want you to give me piggy back rides daily. I want you to kiss my nose. I want you to wipe my tears away. I want you to swim in the ocean with me. I want you to tell me you miss me. I want you to drop everything and hug me tight. I want you to take pictures of us. I want you to take me on a picnic. I want you to snuggle with me in the movie theaters. I want you to squeeze me as hard as you can when you hug me. I want you to smile every single time you see me. I want you to know how much I love you. I just, want you.
Some days are harder than others.
Some days I can't even think.
Some days I can't eat or sleep.
Some days I can't even leave my bed.
Some days I feel like giving up.
Some days are okay.
Some days I don't even cry.
Some days I don't miss you as much.
Some days I don't need to fake a smile.
Some days I almost feel happy again.
Some days I know I will be okay.